03

I have vaguely sensed it in my heart, because a year ago, someone also approached me in this way, with a somewhat nervous yet earnest expression, to tell me something.

The two years spent by my side must have been very difficult for Xia Zixuan

"It’s not your fault... it’s not your fault..." I choked out, "Xu Song, Xu Song, what should I do..."

Later, we both got admitted to Xia Yu, and the number of times he made me angry decreased significantly. Upon careful reflection, what stands out are the numerous heartwarming moments.

I took all his kindness and his faults for granted, thereby neglecting his sincerity towards me, as well as my own sincerity towards him

What should I do? ... At this moment, when another boy confesses his feelings to me, I suddenly realize my own feelings...

When I wanted to turn back, Xu Song suddenly called my name with a serious expression

Perhaps it is love... I admire his gentleness, I appreciate his attentiveness, I am fond of his delicate appearance, and I cherish the feeling he gives me, akin to a refreshing spring breeze... So, should I be happy now? I should even be so happy that I jump up, exclaiming "I do" while hugging him like a koala, spinning in place!

I nodded and followed him out of the building where the KTV was located

I walked to the corridor outside the private room, took out my phone, and retrieved Xia Zixuan's original phone number

At that time, my words "I'm sorry" were meant to convey that I had not realized his feelings, repeatedly bringing up how Xu Song had hurt him, so I apologize! Why didn't I chase after him to tell him? I should have chased after him!

This is not acceptable! I cannot do this! I know, I clearly know that I should face Xu Song now, I should listen to him speak to me slowly, I should tell him my feelings! But I am unable to concentrate, I am at a loss as to what to do because of this sudden realization.

Is that so? I also really enjoy the feeling of chatting with you, it's relaxed and carefree, without any burden. After all, we have been old friends for so many years! I smiled at him.

The familiar scene made my heart race uncontrollably

So, do I really like Xu Song

I felt as if I had done something guilty, hurriedly hanging up the phone and stuffing it back into my pocket, awkwardly smiling at Xu Song and saying, "Yes... how come you are out too?"

Subconsciously, I grasped the hem of my clothing, as if my heart had been lifted by something... Suddenly, I felt an overwhelming urge to flee. However, it was evident that the current situation did not permit me to do so

Xiao Han? Xu Song, who had been waiting for my answer, finally noticed that something was off with me. "What’s wrong? Why are you crying? I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been so sudden, I apologize." He was flustered, looking as helpless as a child.

However, it seems that I have never categorized this kind of affection beyond friendship

Now dialing, can I hear Xia Zixuan's voice again

I reached out to touch, only to realize that at some point, I had already been in tears.

Xu Song has been a remarkably gentle person since the moment I met him. Every time I spend time with him, I feel as if I am enveloped in a spring breeze. He is like a warm ray of sunshine, capable of making those around him feel comforted. It is precisely because of the warmth he has provided that, over the years, even though our meetings have become less frequent, the friendship between us has remained unchanged. Even though Xia Zixuan once left me without a word because of Xu Song, which led me to intentionally distance myself from Xu Song afterward, in my heart, Xu Song has always been my good friend. It is precisely because of the warmth he has provided that, over the years, even though our meetings have become less frequent, the friendship between us has remained unchanged. Even though Xia Zixuan once left me without a word because of Xu Song, which led me to intentionally distance myself from Xu Song afterward, in my heart, Xu Song has always been my good friend.

But... why? Aren't we good friends who grew up together? Why is he saying now that he wants to be in a relationship with me? Is this a confession? But we haven't been in the same school for three years of high school. When did he start to like me?

Xu Song and I leisurely walked along the cobblestone path beside the canal

At that time, Xia Zixuan said that my heart and eyes were filled with Xu Song, and that I always spoke of Xu Song in every sentence. Therefore, he must have thought that I liked Xu Song. He believed that my "I'm sorry" was a rejection of his feelings, which is why he bid farewell to me with such a sorrowful gaze

Previously, I always felt as if there was a layer of fog in my heart; now, those areas in my heart that seemed shrouded in gloom are gradually becoming clear and bright.

I opened my mouth to speak, only to realize that my voice was so dry that after uttering just one word, I fell silent

Before long, we arrived at the less crowded end of the bridge

I feel the same way," I nodded in agreement and said, "It feels as if the heavy mountain pressing down on my shoulders has been removed by the old man Yu Gong.

Xu Song looked at me with amusement after hearing my metaphor and said, "Xiao Han, do you know? Every time I talk to you, I feel very happy"

The heart twitches little by little, and there is a faint pain in the chest with each breath

Before Xia Zixuan said such words, I had always believed that the three of us were the best friends in the world and would remain good friends for a lifetime. This friendship transcends gender and does not change with the passage of time

In the student council, he silently undertook all tasks, offering many useful suggestions, yet attributed all the credit to me; during those uncomfortable days each month, he often thoughtfully brought me a thermos filled with brown sugar water, watching me drink it; he knew I loved the iris flower field at our former school, so he would always take me back to see it on weekends, ... we would weed the irises together; even as I continuously recounted the little moments I shared with Xu Song in front of him, he endured it all with great patience ... he often thoughtfully brought me a thermos filled with brown sugar water, watching me drink it; he knew I loved the iris flower field at our former school, so he would always take me back to see it on weekends, ... we would weed the irises together; even as I continuously recounted the little moments I shared with Xu Song in front of him, he endured it all with great patience ...

However, at this moment, looking at that string of 11-digit numbers, I suddenly feel a strong desire to give it a try

What should I do? After being apart for a year, I finally understand that my avoidance of thinking about Xia Zixuan is because I like him! ... It is because of this affection that I feel sad and cannot forget him ...? ... But what should I do ...? I can never see him again ... ...

I was completely unprepared, my heart was in turmoil... I should have responded to him better, but all I could muster was the three words "I'm sorry"

What should I do? I have lost the person I truly like

Xu Song remarked, "I haven't felt this relaxed in a long time"

So, at that time, this is how I caused Xia Zixuan to misunderstand, which is why he left so angrily after hearing me say "I'm sorry"

After Xia Zixuan left, I quickly entered the third grade, focusing solely on my studies and completely neglecting matters of the heart

I, like you, feel that the private room is a bit stuffy. Xu Song, with his long legs, took a few steps to my side and said, "Come accompany me for a walk."

But why do I not have such emotions and impulses? Even at this moment, all that fills my heart and mind is Xia Zixuan

However, before the call was connected, I heard Xu Song's voice behind me: "Xiao Han, do you feel a bit stuffy in the private room, so you came out for some fresh air?"

I don't know if it's my illusion, but I always feel that Xu Song, standing in front of me at this moment, seems a bit nervous, perhaps because the hands he has placed by his side have already formed into fists

In the face of Xu Song's tenderness, I also feel very relaxed. I enjoy sharing my thoughts with him and am very happy that he has always been by my side, unwavering for so many years

After he transferred and left, I also frantically called this number, but it only indicated that the phone was turned off. I sent many text messages to this number, but received no replies at all. Later, I never touched this phone number again

I believed that the friendship among three individuals could still be maintained even if one of them, Xia Zixuan, were to leave, with the remaining two continuing on together

The moonlight is like water, and under the moonlight, Xu Song's eyes seem to shine, flowing with a tenderness akin to water. I believe that everything he just said came from the deepest part of his heart, without a trace of insincerity.

Have you cried

Under the streetlight, Xu Song smiled gently at me, but at this moment, my mind was filled with the image of that white-clad youth from a year ago, standing in the sunset, his expression dim and his features picturesque

Across from the building is a canal, with trees on both sides adorned with colorful little lights that shimmer with dazzling brilliance. Many couples stroll hand in hand along the canal's edge.

Yes, at that time, Xia Zixuan leaned close to my ear and said to me in a very soft voice: "Luo Xiaohan, I like you"

We walk slowly, the streetlights casting long shadows of our figures

It turns out that during those times I was unaware, the two best friends I thought I had—Xia Zixuan and Xu Song—were silently harboring feelings for me? But why is that the case? Clearly, I—clearly I am so terrible! ... So terrible that I have never even noticed their feelings ...? ... Does Xia Zixuan know about Xu Song's feelings, which is why he was so resistant to me mentioning Xu Song in front of him? Does he think I like Xu Song!? But I truly believed we were just friends, good friends! ... Does Xia Zixuan know about Xu Song's feelings, which is why he was so resistant to me mentioning Xu Song in front of him? Does he think I like Xu Song!? But I truly believed we were just friends, good friends!

Why, when Xia Zixuan asked me what he meant to me in my heart, was I unable to directly tell him that we are friends

Although he has often made me angry since childhood, every time he does so, he comes back to cheer me up. This is also why I have never truly been angry with him. Looking back, the things he did to annoy me were probably just to attract my attention

I have always been afraid to think deeply, fearing that it would lead to sadness

It seemed that I had been bewitched by something; thinking this, I inexplicably dialed the number.

It is only now that I suddenly realize—it's affection! It's not any other kind of feeling, it's simply affection! I, I like Xia Zixuan!

Xu Song's expression was consistently gentle as he gazed at me, as if he had mustered great courage to say: "Xiao Han, when I am with you, I feel very comfortable and at ease. I like this state. So let us attend the same university together, and be an ordinary couple of college students, supporting each other in our growth... I want to explore more scenery with you, visit more places, and learn more things. Are you willing?" So let us attend the same university together, and be an ordinary couple of college students, supporting each other in our growth... I want to explore more scenery with you, visit more places, and learn more things. Are you willing?"

On the contrary, after having some leisure time, the one I think about the most is Xia Zixuan. I cannot forget that lonely figure under the setting sun, cannot forget those eyes soaked in sadness, cannot forget that phone number that always reminds me to turn off.

The words that Xia Zixuan once spoke to me echo continuously in my ears. The things he has done for me unfold like a long scroll, gradually revealing itself before me

I stopped in my tracks, turned around, and asked with a smile: "What's wrong?"

He has been harboring so many secrets by himself, yet he has never shared them with me. It was only when he was about to move that he finally couldn't hold it in any longer and found an outlet to express everything.

In such a situation, he unexpectedly said those words to me

What does he want to do